The girl does not receive the pages but a history of the pages

does not receive the words, “give me your blonde, pounding heart!” in her ears but in her hair and fingernails.

does not walk lightly across the thin carpet and up the stairs and up the stairs

does not walk effectively over cobblestones in high heels, faltering (I want to break your ankle, carry you crying)

does not forge things or read by forging light or steal from medicine cabinets in bathrooms at parties.

does not receive a handshake and the glance is less the glance and more the absence of the glance, after.

does not receive the conspiratorial text message: call when you get home dont ring the bell

does not receive the carefully shaped plea to be anything but the tone of the plea like a flute.

does not receive the acute, telekinetic, gut sticking sinews of his chest like tightspaghetti on a fork.